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In a couple of weeks some 100 people of my high school year will get together to celebrate their – our - 20th anniversary of graduating from high school. I have no intentions of joining them. I feel no desire whatsoever to meet any of them. I might enjoy meeting three or four of my former class mates, but funnily enough the only people I’d like to meet again after 20 years already announced that they won’t come, so I won’t go either. I don’t want to see any of the others. I don’t have anything to say to them, and I don’t care what they have to say. I’ve put my high school life behind me for good.

I hated school. I love learning, but I hated school, especially high school. The part I hated the most were the bullies. Now my problems with bullies weren’t that bad. I bullied as many people myself as I got bullied by, so I guess I was somewhere in the middle of the schoolyard pecking order. But I’ve seen some people get the shit bullied out of them, and I wasn’t enough of a hero to step in. I hate myself for that to this day.

Nobody ever called me gay, but I’ve seen other people get called gay, and I’ve seen the look on their faces. No matter if they really were gay or not, I can only imagine what being accused of being gay must have done to their souls. However, none of them (at least not to my knowledge) ever killed themselves.

It’s strange how the story of someone you don’t even know, someone  from the other end of the world, can get to your heart like that. Then again these stories can happen anywhere, and unfortunately they do. This is the world we live in. It’s the world I live in, and that’s why I care.

Kids are not only cruel. Kids are also stupid. They don’t know anything unless they’re taught it or somehow learn it by themselves. You may think that you’re incredibly open-minded when you say “I don’t mind if people are gay and have gay sex, but I’m against gay marriage because marriage is a sacred institution for a man and a woman, and it’s dating back thousands of years blabla.” Kids don’t follow that kind of reasoning. They can’t. If you’re against gay marriage the message that you’re sending out to kids is that being gay is wrong and bad, and they’re gonna act on it one way or the other. Yes, kids are that simple. If you oppose gay marriage your message to your kids is “being gay is wrong”, and you are responsible for straight kids harrassing gay people and for gay kids feeling so miserable that they want to – and sometimes even do – kill themselves.

Fuck you, gay haters. It’s you that should be dead, and not some poor 11-year-old boy.